Touch Me & Tocarme

Touch Me

I want to feel your touch
And even if “we” can’t be
I need it, and I do not care,
Just put your hands on me.
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I’ve never felt like this before,
But I want your lips on mine,
I know it in my heart of hearts
That this might be a sign.
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Lace your fingers in with mine
And kiss me soft and sweet
Feel the hunger growing
As we let our bodies meet.
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Do you feel it in your body?
Do you see it in my eyes?
Do you want it like I do?
Will you let the hunger rise?
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Am I really ready for this?
It’s a whole new thing to me,
But I sense that if I give in,
It might just set me free.

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Tocarme

Quiero sentir tu tacto
E incluso si "nosotros" no se puede
Lo necesito, y no me importa,
Solamente ponga sus manos sobre mí.
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Nunca he sentido así antes,
Pero quiero tus labios en las minas,
Sé que en mi corazón de corazones
Que esto podría ser una señal.
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Encaje con los dedos en las minas
Y me beso suave y dulce
Sentir el hambre creciente
A medida que nos permiten cumplir con nuestros cuerpos.
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¿Te sientes en tu cuerpo?
¿Usted lo ve en mis ojos?
¿Quieres que me gusta hacer?
¿Va a dejar que el aumento del hambre?
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¿Estoy realmente preparado para esto?
Es una cosa totalmente nueva para mí,
Pero tengo la sensación de que si me dan en
Tal vez sólo me libre.

Escapar

So yesterday sucked, too. I guess it was just kind of a suckish week. *sigh*

Hopefully this week'll be better.

Today, I'm hoping to get together with Laura and have her sleep over. We haven't had a sleepover for so long, it's insane. She wants to play with my hair and makeup and stuff for Selgae's, and if all goes well, she'll get all day that day to make me beautiful. :3

I got to play my guitar a little bit this morning. I was suprised that I didn't totally suck again; I don't get nearly as much time as I want to to play, but I still remember how to play most of the things I've learned/taught myself. I'm gonna play more this year- I really want to get better at it while it's easier for me to learn and remember. But of course, band comes first.

Speaking of band, I'm anxious for Eagle Band tryouts, even though I think like everybody gets in. I mean, I don't want to be known as the only flute that sucks or whatever... I know that I'm pretty good, but I also know that I could totally screw it up. Playing in front of people (alone, or for chair placements or whatever) makes my stomach churn. Kind of like when Danielle had to leave and she left me to play her solo in Awakening Hills and I think that I kind of sucked. Laura said I did an amazing job, but I'm not so sure.

I'll put a new poem that I wrote up, too. It's called Touch Me, and it was inspired by Untouched by The Veronicas and Addicted by Saving Abel. Enjoy!

Love,
Lauren. ♥

Slow Dance

Slow Dance

By: Lauren Elizabeth Hadlund

The lights are low,

The music is soft and calm,

and I love the feel of your fingers

Tracing the delicate lines on my palm.

One hand is around my waist,

Holding me in so tight,

I wouldn't wish for anything

'Cause it's all good tonight.

As I move my hand up your arm

and hug you close to me

I put my head on your chest

letting your scent set me free.

As we gently sway together,

the music keeping steady

I can't help but ask myself,

"Am I really ready?"

Just dance with me tonight,

Don't let anyone say it's not right,

'Cause both of us, we know it's true,

And tonight I just wanna dance with you.

Halloween!

Hey, everyone!

Happy Halloween!

Today wasn't too bad... I wore my Fedora, pearl earrings, my suit jacket & a black cami, a pearl necklace, a jean miniskirt, tights, and my Candies stillettos. It was pretty sexy, if I do say so myself. Haha. Anyway, so in Spanish I had to stand up in front of the class and everyone was looking at me and I was like, "Hey... how's it going?" and it was a little awkward, but not too bad. In Enriched English we were working with Iambic Pentameters, and it was pretty amazing. My friend came up with this: I can't believe that she would fuck my mom." and I almost died from laughing so hard.

Lunch was interesting, though... Bryant seemed a little bit like he was avoiding me... and he, like, didn't really talk to me much... though he was looking at me- I caught him doing it- not that I wasn't looking at him, though. *sigh* And after, since he's got 4th lunch too, he has to leave at the same time I do, and I was like, hug?
Bryant: I'm sick.
Me: *gives withering look* I've been sick. I'm not gonna get sick.
Bryant: But I'm sick. I don't want you to get sick.
Me: I promise, I'm not gonna get sick.
*hug*
Me: I won't get sick. I promise. I bet you ten bucks that I won't get sick!
Bryant: I won't bet!
*end*
So, I guess it made me feel a little fluffy inside... hee hee...

Oh, and I found out that Morgan has a new girlfriend. Seriously, what is with my boyfriends getting new girlfriends within a week of us splitting?! I don't get it!! >:O It depresses me! Laura says that I have, like, a disease... I can't stay single for, like, over a week. What sucks is she's kind of right. I wish that I didn't have so many guys that liked me... and no, I'm not kidding. I don't get why they like me in the first place!! Seriously! There are tons of better, smarter, prettier, and taller girls out there... but they always pick me. I don't get it. :/

*sigh*

Now I'm depressed.

I guess I'll keep ya updated... but this is all for now.

Love,
Lauryn.

xOxOxOxO

Life Sucks... and Then You Die

I hate everything, you know.

Okay, so maybe not everything, but enough to drive me fricking crazy. I swear to God, I'm going to end up in the Wacky Shack before I'm dead... which may come soon... haha.

Anyway, so there's this guy I like (Bryant), and I found out that he's kind of a liar... and he has a "girlfriend" apparently... and she's from New York. But something doesn't add up about the whole situation... and I'm determined to find out what it is. *sigh* I guess that I'll just have to write my way out of this one... again... I mean, I haven't written too much poetry recently... maybe that's for a reason, though.

God, I hate how much I over-analyze things.

And then I over-analyze my over-analyzing.

GOD.

So, today, I got to get out of school for pep band. We got to leave at noon and we got back at, like, 5:50-ish. It was epic. EP EAGLES WON! YEAH!

Today I'm very tired... it's been, like, go-go-go all freaking day! My God! And then tomorrow, during our Zero Hour, I have to make up an Enriched English test! >.<

Well, that's all for now, I guess.

Love,
Lauryn.