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So yesterday sucked, too. I guess it was just kind of a suckish week. *sigh*

Hopefully this week'll be better.

Today, I'm hoping to get together with Laura and have her sleep over. We haven't had a sleepover for so long, it's insane. She wants to play with my hair and makeup and stuff for Selgae's, and if all goes well, she'll get all day that day to make me beautiful. :3

I got to play my guitar a little bit this morning. I was suprised that I didn't totally suck again; I don't get nearly as much time as I want to to play, but I still remember how to play most of the things I've learned/taught myself. I'm gonna play more this year- I really want to get better at it while it's easier for me to learn and remember. But of course, band comes first.

Speaking of band, I'm anxious for Eagle Band tryouts, even though I think like everybody gets in. I mean, I don't want to be known as the only flute that sucks or whatever... I know that I'm pretty good, but I also know that I could totally screw it up. Playing in front of people (alone, or for chair placements or whatever) makes my stomach churn. Kind of like when Danielle had to leave and she left me to play her solo in Awakening Hills and I think that I kind of sucked. Laura said I did an amazing job, but I'm not so sure.

I'll put a new poem that I wrote up, too. It's called Touch Me, and it was inspired by Untouched by The Veronicas and Addicted by Saving Abel. Enjoy!

Love,
Lauren. ♥

Dude. What A Day.

Wow, I just failed. I typed the title of the post, and then I pressed "enter"... and it saved it. God, I hate computers.

Haha, just kidding.

I actually love computers... o.o

Okay, so I was just talking to one of my friends, and he's like, "I know you love Bryant." and I'm like, "wtf..." and he's like, "How long were you staring at the guy?" I glanced. I did not stare. I glanced. Frick that. I do really like him, though... but I learned that he has a girlfriend (though she's in New York), and even though I freaking love him, I won't put him through the hell that I could. See? I am a nice person.

So. I cannot believe that Halloween is TOMORROW!!! :o I mean, I knew it was coming up, but... wow! I'm gonna throw my costume together tonight. Haha. I'm going to my friend's house for a party... but, like, there's only, like, one guy I know- Chase. He lives in my neighborhood, too, and he's pretty cool. :] (I'll never tell HIM that, though!!) I'm actually pretty excited. I think we're going trick-or-treating (who gives a shit if we're in high school?!). My mom was like, "That's inappropriate. High schoolers are too old for that." And I'm like, wtf?! FREE CANDY!!! I DON'T CARE!! HAHA!!

I am in a very odd mood today. So I started the day so fucking pissed that I could barely walk straight ('cause my evil parents made me go to the doctor's instead of pep band! The nerve of them!), and then I'm ending it... happily numb... which is an oxymoron, thank you very much. :P I keep going in and out of being depressed (or emo, if you really want to say that), and in class I ended up writing "What if I wanted to break", "What am I saying? You don't care", and "What r u waiting 4?" on my hand. Mom and dad didn't appreciate that much... but it was better than the time when I wrote lyrics all up and down my (left) arm. That was epic.

Speaking of epic, I am beginning to plan my sweet 16... even though I turned 15 just three days ago. I mean, it's gonna be big, and I need to get started on plans right away so I can put them into action and have it damn near perfect. Haha. That's also why I'm having a friend or three help. :]

So... I think I've exhausted my mind (and my fingers) for tonight... I may add more to this, but that's all for now!!

Love,
Lauryn. ♥