Touch Me
I want to feel your touch
And even if “we” can’t be
I need it, and I do not care,
Just put your hands on me.
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I’ve never felt like this before,
But I want your lips on mine,
I know it in my heart of hearts
That this might be a sign.
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Lace your fingers in with mine
And kiss me soft and sweet
Feel the hunger growing
As we let our bodies meet.
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Do you feel it in your body?
Do you see it in my eyes?
Do you want it like I do?
Will you let the hunger rise?
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Am I really ready for this?
It’s a whole new thing to me,
But I sense that if I give in,
It might just set me free.
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Tocarme
Quiero sentir tu tacto
E incluso si "nosotros" no se puede
Lo necesito, y no me importa,
Solamente ponga sus manos sobre mí.
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Nunca he sentido así antes,
Pero quiero tus labios en las minas,
Sé que en mi corazón de corazones
Que esto podría ser una señal.
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Encaje con los dedos en las minas
Y me beso suave y dulce
Sentir el hambre creciente
A medida que nos permiten cumplir con nuestros cuerpos.
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¿Te sientes en tu cuerpo?
¿Usted lo ve en mis ojos?
¿Quieres que me gusta hacer?
¿Va a dejar que el aumento del hambre?
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¿Estoy realmente preparado para esto?
Es una cosa totalmente nueva para mí,
Pero tengo la sensación de que si me dan en
Tal vez sólo me libre.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Escapar
So yesterday sucked, too. I guess it was just kind of a suckish week. *sigh*
Hopefully this week'll be better.
Today, I'm hoping to get together with Laura and have her sleep over. We haven't had a sleepover for so long, it's insane. She wants to play with my hair and makeup and stuff for Selgae's, and if all goes well, she'll get all day that day to make me beautiful. :3
I got to play my guitar a little bit this morning. I was suprised that I didn't totally suck again; I don't get nearly as much time as I want to to play, but I still remember how to play most of the things I've learned/taught myself. I'm gonna play more this year- I really want to get better at it while it's easier for me to learn and remember. But of course, band comes first.
Speaking of band, I'm anxious for Eagle Band tryouts, even though I think like everybody gets in. I mean, I don't want to be known as the only flute that sucks or whatever... I know that I'm pretty good, but I also know that I could totally screw it up. Playing in front of people (alone, or for chair placements or whatever) makes my stomach churn. Kind of like when Danielle had to leave and she left me to play her solo in Awakening Hills and I think that I kind of sucked. Laura said I did an amazing job, but I'm not so sure.
I'll put a new poem that I wrote up, too. It's called Touch Me, and it was inspired by Untouched by The Veronicas and Addicted by Saving Abel. Enjoy!
Love,
Lauren. ♥
Hopefully this week'll be better.
Today, I'm hoping to get together with Laura and have her sleep over. We haven't had a sleepover for so long, it's insane. She wants to play with my hair and makeup and stuff for Selgae's, and if all goes well, she'll get all day that day to make me beautiful. :3
I got to play my guitar a little bit this morning. I was suprised that I didn't totally suck again; I don't get nearly as much time as I want to to play, but I still remember how to play most of the things I've learned/taught myself. I'm gonna play more this year- I really want to get better at it while it's easier for me to learn and remember. But of course, band comes first.
Speaking of band, I'm anxious for Eagle Band tryouts, even though I think like everybody gets in. I mean, I don't want to be known as the only flute that sucks or whatever... I know that I'm pretty good, but I also know that I could totally screw it up. Playing in front of people (alone, or for chair placements or whatever) makes my stomach churn. Kind of like when Danielle had to leave and she left me to play her solo in Awakening Hills and I think that I kind of sucked. Laura said I did an amazing job, but I'm not so sure.
I'll put a new poem that I wrote up, too. It's called Touch Me, and it was inspired by Untouched by The Veronicas and Addicted by Saving Abel. Enjoy!
Love,
Lauren. ♥
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Other Life?
So yesterday kind of sucked. Okay, it really sucked.
Band was cool, but it's always cool. Computer tech wasn't too hard, either. But Spanish. Woah. I had this bigass test, and I like totally blanked on it- I don't think that I FAILED, but I know that I bs-ed some of it. *sigh* But then I had english. Holy crap. The Scarlet Letter test was awful! The true/false part of it was OPINIONS, too! I was like "FAIL! DIE!" And I also got an 8/18 on that damn vocab quiz.
God, I hate school right now.
After school, Laura and I went to the mall together, and we went to J.C. Penny's, and I found the most beautiful dress I could ever imagine. It was blue, strapless, and floor-length, and it fit me like a dream. But... I couldn't get it. It was $2oo. I almost cried.
...I shouldn't feel guilty. But I do.
Laura and I were talking about Matt last night, too, and it's not pretty. According to her, he's still way not over me... and it's like... sad, because the new girl he's dating is a total bitch, and Laura can tell that she doesn't really like him... and I feel so guilty because he's changed so much, and I know that I had a big hand in it... and I think that he needs to get over me... because I love him, but I'm not IN love with him... and I guess it's possible that we could have a future together, but not now. I've moved on. I know it's really hard to get over someone, but... he's just not dealing with it the right way. I feel so bad for him, too. He deserves better, even though he's kind of turned into a royal jackass. *sigh*
Love sucks.
Lauren.
Band was cool, but it's always cool. Computer tech wasn't too hard, either. But Spanish. Woah. I had this bigass test, and I like totally blanked on it- I don't think that I FAILED, but I know that I bs-ed some of it. *sigh* But then I had english. Holy crap. The Scarlet Letter test was awful! The true/false part of it was OPINIONS, too! I was like "FAIL! DIE!" And I also got an 8/18 on that damn vocab quiz.
God, I hate school right now.
After school, Laura and I went to the mall together, and we went to J.C. Penny's, and I found the most beautiful dress I could ever imagine. It was blue, strapless, and floor-length, and it fit me like a dream. But... I couldn't get it. It was $2oo. I almost cried.
...I shouldn't feel guilty. But I do.
Laura and I were talking about Matt last night, too, and it's not pretty. According to her, he's still way not over me... and it's like... sad, because the new girl he's dating is a total bitch, and Laura can tell that she doesn't really like him... and I feel so guilty because he's changed so much, and I know that I had a big hand in it... and I think that he needs to get over me... because I love him, but I'm not IN love with him... and I guess it's possible that we could have a future together, but not now. I've moved on. I know it's really hard to get over someone, but... he's just not dealing with it the right way. I feel so bad for him, too. He deserves better, even though he's kind of turned into a royal jackass. *sigh*
Love sucks.
Lauren.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Whee.
Okay, so it's been better, I guess.
Last night, I was freaking out because I have to write an evil paper on The Scarlet Letter, and I don't really get the book, so I'm kind of fucked there, but hopefully I can scrape a decent grade... hopefully. *sigh* But I got my Romeo and Juliet essay into Mrs. Goertz, so at least I don't have that hanging over my freaking head. God.
Today was pretty good. I mean, band's always awesome, and computer tech's... computer tech. Haha. Spanish was pretty good, actually. There were a lot of "that's what she said" jokes, which I am getting better at. lol. English was cool; but lunch was good, too. It was fourth hour when things started getting interesting. I have gym fourth with Trevor, Philip, Hannah, Marcie, and tons of other people, and we were playing badminton. I was rockin' out with my badminton racket guitar and headbanging and I was a frickin' hack at it. It was sexy. But yeah, I was really excited and then I was ranting at everyone about everything. Poor Bryant. The kid's heard me ranting and yelling more than like most of my friends have. He's awesome about it, though; he just stands there and listens to me. What a cool kid.
Ooh, yeah, I have a band concert tonight. Laura's got UMTYMP, so I'm gonna help her by getting her saxophone out and shit. 'Cause I'm that cool of a person. But I'm pumped 'cause I get to hang with people and I'll talk to Bryant. Everyone's like "OMG ASK HIM OUT" but I can't get the guts to. *sigh*
Welcome to my life.
Lauren. ♥
P.S. Why am I so afraid to lose you... when you're not even mine?
Last night, I was freaking out because I have to write an evil paper on The Scarlet Letter, and I don't really get the book, so I'm kind of fucked there, but hopefully I can scrape a decent grade... hopefully. *sigh* But I got my Romeo and Juliet essay into Mrs. Goertz, so at least I don't have that hanging over my freaking head. God.
Today was pretty good. I mean, band's always awesome, and computer tech's... computer tech. Haha. Spanish was pretty good, actually. There were a lot of "that's what she said" jokes, which I am getting better at. lol. English was cool; but lunch was good, too. It was fourth hour when things started getting interesting. I have gym fourth with Trevor, Philip, Hannah, Marcie, and tons of other people, and we were playing badminton. I was rockin' out with my badminton racket guitar and headbanging and I was a frickin' hack at it. It was sexy. But yeah, I was really excited and then I was ranting at everyone about everything. Poor Bryant. The kid's heard me ranting and yelling more than like most of my friends have. He's awesome about it, though; he just stands there and listens to me. What a cool kid.
Ooh, yeah, I have a band concert tonight. Laura's got UMTYMP, so I'm gonna help her by getting her saxophone out and shit. 'Cause I'm that cool of a person. But I'm pumped 'cause I get to hang with people and I'll talk to Bryant. Everyone's like "OMG ASK HIM OUT" but I can't get the guts to. *sigh*
Welcome to my life.
Lauren. ♥
P.S. Why am I so afraid to lose you... when you're not even mine?
Monday, January 12, 2009
New Year. Whoopee.
Well, it's a new year. Huzzah. Not.
I guess I'm excited for it to be 2009, but I mean, it feels just like last year. Not different. Maybe it'll turn out to be good (Obama takes office, yay!), but maybe it'll suck. Ah, well, only time will tell.
So I spent New Years with the 'rents, but I won't get into that 'cause it wasn't boring, but not exciting, either. *sigh*
Oh, yes, I was at Trevor's last night for a party, and it was fricking AMAZING. So like everyone was there, and we watched Shallow Hal and it was hilarious. Oh, yeah, and Bryant and I cuddled. He's so comfortable, and I was so happy to be with him. At one point, I just wanted to freeze the rest of the world and just stay there and listen to his heartbeat. He's the most amazing guy ever. *sigh*
So yeah... I really like him. Pretty much the story of my life right now.
RIGHT. THE FUCKING SCARLET LETTER. MY GOD I HATE THAT BOOK WITH A BURNING PASSION AND IT SHOULD GO DIE IN THE FLAMING PITS OF HELL. AUGH. Oh, and I have to write a frickin' essay on it (300 words!) for enriched english! And I have to re-write my Romeo and Juliet paper 'cause it sucked. God. I hate school right now.
*sigh*
Well. I guess I'll talk later. I should start on my essay before I'm totally fucked. =/
Peace.
Lauren. ♥
I guess I'm excited for it to be 2009, but I mean, it feels just like last year. Not different. Maybe it'll turn out to be good (Obama takes office, yay!), but maybe it'll suck. Ah, well, only time will tell.
So I spent New Years with the 'rents, but I won't get into that 'cause it wasn't boring, but not exciting, either. *sigh*
Oh, yes, I was at Trevor's last night for a party, and it was fricking AMAZING. So like everyone was there, and we watched Shallow Hal and it was hilarious. Oh, yeah, and Bryant and I cuddled. He's so comfortable, and I was so happy to be with him. At one point, I just wanted to freeze the rest of the world and just stay there and listen to his heartbeat. He's the most amazing guy ever. *sigh*
So yeah... I really like him. Pretty much the story of my life right now.
RIGHT. THE FUCKING SCARLET LETTER. MY GOD I HATE THAT BOOK WITH A BURNING PASSION AND IT SHOULD GO DIE IN THE FLAMING PITS OF HELL. AUGH. Oh, and I have to write a frickin' essay on it (300 words!) for enriched english! And I have to re-write my Romeo and Juliet paper 'cause it sucked. God. I hate school right now.
*sigh*
Well. I guess I'll talk later. I should start on my essay before I'm totally fucked. =/
Peace.
Lauren. ♥
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