Reflection?

It's the perfect time of year
Somewhere far away from here
I feel fine enough, I guess
Considering everything's a mess...

I like this song... it's a new addiction for me. It's Pinch Me by the Barenaked Ladies.

I could hide out under there
I just made you say "underwear"

Haha. Best line ever.

Anyway. So Bryant and I are doing really well, and I don't think I've ever been happier with any guy that I've ever dated. :] I know, I know, I've probably said that about every guy... but I mean it wholeheartedly this time... like, it's just... different. But in a really nice way. Like, he makes me really want to be a better person... and it's going to sound weird, but I consider him one of my angels. And I'm trying as hard as I can to not get totally wrapped up in him and lose my friends, because they're important, too. And school, as well. I need to keep my mind in class, and sometimes it can prove to be a... bit challenging. Especially in math class. God. But yeah... life is improving. And it's taking work, but it is getting better.

And God is really helping me, too. I know that I haven't exactly been a "role model" as a Christian, but I'm trying to get stronger in my faith, too. I want to get closer to God, and I also want to show Bryant what it's like to have a strong faith. I know that he's cool with me being for God and everything, but I want him to get to know Jesus. But I'm not going to make him. I'm just going to be there for anything and everything. I don't want to make him uncomfortable with anything, and I'm certainly not going to force what I believe in on him.

Wow, that's a rather heavy load... but I'll stop there. :]

Love,
Lauren. ♥

P.S. "She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. When she speaks, her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness."
-Proverbs 31: 25-26

Ughh.

So like everyone in the fricking school is sick.

And now I'm one of them. :(

So yesterday, I made it through the school day (barely), and when I got home I like collapsed on my bed. I fought with my parents 'cause they didn't believe that I was really sick, but when they took my temperature and saw it was like 100*, then they let me stay home. I felt really bad about skipping out on church, but I didn't want to get anyone else sick. And I'd much rather go than have to stay home 'cause I feel like crap. *sigh* But I ended up sleeping for like ever... I got up at about 9-something to eat, then went right back to bed. :)

I slept pretty damn well, too. Which is really good, 'cause I want to get better so I can get back to school and stuff. And I HATE feeling sick. :(

Laura was feeling crummy too, and Bryant's sick with the flu. I feel pretty awful about that... but if we're all sick at the same time, then hopefully we won't be sick again. :)

I'm just really glad that I'm feeling better right now. I mean, even this morning, I was feeling pretty awful. But now, I can at least sit up & such... and I think my parents are making me go to the doctor's, too... but not like the physical doctor. Phycologist. Guh.

YEE! MARCIE & PHILIP PLAN TO GO TO SELGAE'S TOGETHER!! They're so cute! Laura & I want them to date. :3 Hopefully Marcie can go... that would really suck if she couldn't. :(

...I can't believe that like 5 days after school gets out I'm going to camp for a month... I've never been away from home that long, but I don't think that it'll be my parents that I miss a huge amount... my friends will be on my mind more, I think... but I'ma make them write to me. XD

Well, that's all for now.

Love,
Lauren. ♥

P.S. "You" will be the answer whenever someone asks me what's on my mind. :)