My God. I am probably one of the luckiest girls on the entire planet.
Seriously.
Okay. I'll start with zero hour.
So I get there and I find Ian, a friend of Laura's... and I'm like "I know you! You're Laura's friend- Ian, right?" and he's like "yeah" and I say "I'm Lauren. I'm a good friend of hers. I'm kind of a creeper, but that's okay." And he laughed and walked away. It was hilarious. But yeah. So Bryant, Laura, Andrea, Lucy, people, and I were all hanging out like we usually do, and it was great. Bryant & I were sitting close, and it was really nice to have him just be there. And then he held my hand and I was like ♥. He's such a great kid.
So my schedule was fucked up (yet again), and so I went to the wrong classes. :[ But today, I found out that Nathan's in my math (2nd hour), and so is Nina. God, I hate her. And apparently she's got this plan/idea- she wants to ruin my life. I actually laughed at this. I would like to see her try, and then I'd like to see how she fails epically. If she so much as looks at me tomorrow, I'ma cut her. XD Haha. She has no chance of ruining my life- I have my friends on my side. She's a gonner. But yeah. Social studies wasn't too bad, either, 'cause I have awesome people there, too. :] Lunch was... interesting. lol. Everyone decided that they wanted to sit on me today... and it was actually funny. Like Philip, Leah, and Joanne all sat on me (not at the same time, thank God!). But it's like, whenever I sit next to Bryant, it's just nice to have him there... and feel his body like against mine... it's so reassurring. *blush* But yeah. So then I had science, and I found out that Taylor, Philip & Bryant are all in my class! I was like 'DUDE'. :] It was awesome. And after we'd done our lab, I took Bryant's seat, so he sat next to me, and it was the first time I really looked into his eyes like that, and they're such a beautiful amber... I was almost speechless. Almost. ^.^ And when I was on the bus, Chase & I were sitting next to each other, and he was talking about how Bryant was gay, and I was like :[. I didn't think it was all that funny. Guh.
Laura might get her braces off!! I hope she does for her sake. I know that she's worried about Selgae's, but I also know that even if she can't get them off before then, she'll look drop-dead gorgeous. :]
OMG. I am now addicted to Dark Blue by Jack's Mannequin and Sadie Hawkins by Relient K. And I've fallen in love with Staind. ♥
I guess that's all for now... I should really do my homework... I have a shit ton of it... *sigh*
Love,
Lauren. ♥
P.S. When words become useless, just hold my hand.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Selgae's & Bryant <3
God, I have the best boyfriend ever. :]
So Laura & I were talking (of course) and she texted him saying that I wanted a pair of his boxers (I did. lol.), and he wasn't like "wtf no" or anything. In fact, he brought me a pair, and he was more concerned about if they'd fit me than if he'd get in shit for giving them to me or anything! I almost died when Laura told me. :] She also told me about how this afternoon when I got out of class late, he looked really sad & lonely and told her to ask me where I'd been 'cause he wanted to make sure I was all right... and I melted. He's such an awesome kid!!
I was depressed when I didn't see him in the afternoon, though. :[ But at least I've got zero hour, though, right? :]
Wow, I miss him a lot... but I love having him to miss... it's such a nice feeling.
I still need a dress for Selgae's. The one in my current profile pic was AMAZING, but I couldn't afford it... so Laura & I are gonna go dress shopping again soon. 'Cause I have a date, but I need a dress. Hmm... we both think that I should get a purple & black one. lol.
But I'm seriously so excited for tomorrow, it's not even funny. Yee. <3
Ta-ta for now,
Lauren. ♥
P.S. If I tell you I love you... can I keep you forever?
So Laura & I were talking (of course) and she texted him saying that I wanted a pair of his boxers (I did. lol.), and he wasn't like "wtf no" or anything. In fact, he brought me a pair, and he was more concerned about if they'd fit me than if he'd get in shit for giving them to me or anything! I almost died when Laura told me. :] She also told me about how this afternoon when I got out of class late, he looked really sad & lonely and told her to ask me where I'd been 'cause he wanted to make sure I was all right... and I melted. He's such an awesome kid!!
I was depressed when I didn't see him in the afternoon, though. :[ But at least I've got zero hour, though, right? :]
Wow, I miss him a lot... but I love having him to miss... it's such a nice feeling.
I still need a dress for Selgae's. The one in my current profile pic was AMAZING, but I couldn't afford it... so Laura & I are gonna go dress shopping again soon. 'Cause I have a date, but I need a dress. Hmm... we both think that I should get a purple & black one. lol.
But I'm seriously so excited for tomorrow, it's not even funny. Yee. <3
Ta-ta for now,
Lauren. ♥
P.S. If I tell you I love you... can I keep you forever?
Monday, January 26, 2009
Just A Thought
((I wrote this yesterday, but I was grounded so I wasn't allowed online.))
~*~
I’ve been thinking lately, and I was just wondering what it’s like to be really invisible to everyone... like really, truly invisible. I guess I’ve never really been like that, ‘cause I’m so out there, but sometimes I feel like I am. Usually when I feel like that, it’s during a class that I don’t have anyone else in (at least, anyone that’s a friend). When I’m in class and there’s nobody there, I tend to be really shy and quiet and out of the way... same thing if I’m in a class that I’m not very good at or I don’t know very well. And even though a lot of my friends are better than me in a lot of areas, I guess I don’t sweat it, ‘cause I know that I have my strengths, too... and I try my hardest to support them in their shit; I know they’d do the same for me.
So this weekend, I went to a church thing with Laura called “Sexy?” and we learned more about the whole sex scene and one of the questions that girls ask is “Do you see me?”. I thought that was very powerful; one could answer “yes” right away, but if you think about it on a deeper level, then it’s like... no, you don’t, really. Because if you did, then you would see my flaws and love me for them and not care if I fucked up- you would be there for me, always. If you really saw me, then you would know. We also talked about who girls go to in order to find the answer, and I think it’s sad that a lot of girls just throw their bodies away because they want to know who they are. I believe that if you leave the physical shit out of a relationship, you’ll get to know someone better than you ever would if it all was based on sex. Just because sex reveals the intimacy of physical things- i.e. the body- doesn’t mean that it’ll tell you anything about that person.
Personally, I’m scared of sex. It’s a big deal, and I want my first time to be really special. I know that I want to wait, but I also know that it’s going to be hard to... especially in today’s society. And even if you’re married, it’s scary. I mean, you’re revealing your whole body to another person, and you’re trusting that they’ll love you even if you have imperfections. And just the thought of being naked in front of anyone scares me. My body is MY body, and it’s very personal, and sex is supposed to help strengthen relationships; not build them or hold them together. The best gift you can give is yourself. Sex is only a piece of that.
Okay. Now that that’s off my chest...
So it’s the end of quarter two (YES!) and on Tuesday I’m starting a whole new term- new classes included. Band is like the only class I have that’s the same. Even computer tech’s done now... and it’s like “Woah! Where’d the year go?” I can’t believe that I’m ½ way through my freshman year! I’m glad that I got my gym credits done- now I don’t ever have to take them in high school again- but I’m anxious... like, my math class is on the 3rd floor, then I have social studies, which is on the 1st, then science, which is on the 3rd. I’m gonna be running around like mad, trying to get from class to class in 8 minutes. I think that once I get used to it, though, I’ll be able to relax. I mean, I already know where two of my classes are, and I think I’ll be able to find people in my other two... hopefully. I know that like everyone’s in my social studies class. Trevor, Kerry, Kylie; just to name a few. :] But I’m pumped for that. At least I know that I won’t be alone. And hopefully I’ll be able to keep up in my schoolwork- I’m one of the only kids with like three main classes at once. D: It kinda sucks. And I don’t even have English to take my mind off of things!! *sigh*
As for Bryant and me... we’re doing pretty well. Everyone at lunch the other day was yeeing at me ‘cause we were holding hands. It was so nice. What an awesome kid.
Matt. My God. I’m scared for him. Like really scared. He’s grounded until like March, and it’s because of his creepass girlfriend. God, I hate her- and I don’t even know the chick! All that I know is that he’s in deep shit and his mom even hates her. But he’s changed a lot... and not for the better. I don’t like the new Matt, and neither does Laura. He’s such a dumb kid! He makes me want to kick a cat. >:O
DALE AND ANNA ARE BACK TOGETHER! AND IT MAKES ME HAPPY! :D
I was so mad when they broke up. But now it’s all better, and I’m a happy girl.
Well, that’s all there is for now.
I’ll keep y’all updated. :]
Love,
Lauren. <3
P.S. Te amo.
~*~
I’ve been thinking lately, and I was just wondering what it’s like to be really invisible to everyone... like really, truly invisible. I guess I’ve never really been like that, ‘cause I’m so out there, but sometimes I feel like I am. Usually when I feel like that, it’s during a class that I don’t have anyone else in (at least, anyone that’s a friend). When I’m in class and there’s nobody there, I tend to be really shy and quiet and out of the way... same thing if I’m in a class that I’m not very good at or I don’t know very well. And even though a lot of my friends are better than me in a lot of areas, I guess I don’t sweat it, ‘cause I know that I have my strengths, too... and I try my hardest to support them in their shit; I know they’d do the same for me.
So this weekend, I went to a church thing with Laura called “Sexy?” and we learned more about the whole sex scene and one of the questions that girls ask is “Do you see me?”. I thought that was very powerful; one could answer “yes” right away, but if you think about it on a deeper level, then it’s like... no, you don’t, really. Because if you did, then you would see my flaws and love me for them and not care if I fucked up- you would be there for me, always. If you really saw me, then you would know. We also talked about who girls go to in order to find the answer, and I think it’s sad that a lot of girls just throw their bodies away because they want to know who they are. I believe that if you leave the physical shit out of a relationship, you’ll get to know someone better than you ever would if it all was based on sex. Just because sex reveals the intimacy of physical things- i.e. the body- doesn’t mean that it’ll tell you anything about that person.
Personally, I’m scared of sex. It’s a big deal, and I want my first time to be really special. I know that I want to wait, but I also know that it’s going to be hard to... especially in today’s society. And even if you’re married, it’s scary. I mean, you’re revealing your whole body to another person, and you’re trusting that they’ll love you even if you have imperfections. And just the thought of being naked in front of anyone scares me. My body is MY body, and it’s very personal, and sex is supposed to help strengthen relationships; not build them or hold them together. The best gift you can give is yourself. Sex is only a piece of that.
Okay. Now that that’s off my chest...
So it’s the end of quarter two (YES!) and on Tuesday I’m starting a whole new term- new classes included. Band is like the only class I have that’s the same. Even computer tech’s done now... and it’s like “Woah! Where’d the year go?” I can’t believe that I’m ½ way through my freshman year! I’m glad that I got my gym credits done- now I don’t ever have to take them in high school again- but I’m anxious... like, my math class is on the 3rd floor, then I have social studies, which is on the 1st, then science, which is on the 3rd. I’m gonna be running around like mad, trying to get from class to class in 8 minutes. I think that once I get used to it, though, I’ll be able to relax. I mean, I already know where two of my classes are, and I think I’ll be able to find people in my other two... hopefully. I know that like everyone’s in my social studies class. Trevor, Kerry, Kylie; just to name a few. :] But I’m pumped for that. At least I know that I won’t be alone. And hopefully I’ll be able to keep up in my schoolwork- I’m one of the only kids with like three main classes at once. D: It kinda sucks. And I don’t even have English to take my mind off of things!! *sigh*
As for Bryant and me... we’re doing pretty well. Everyone at lunch the other day was yeeing at me ‘cause we were holding hands. It was so nice. What an awesome kid.
Matt. My God. I’m scared for him. Like really scared. He’s grounded until like March, and it’s because of his creepass girlfriend. God, I hate her- and I don’t even know the chick! All that I know is that he’s in deep shit and his mom even hates her. But he’s changed a lot... and not for the better. I don’t like the new Matt, and neither does Laura. He’s such a dumb kid! He makes me want to kick a cat. >:O
DALE AND ANNA ARE BACK TOGETHER! AND IT MAKES ME HAPPY! :D
I was so mad when they broke up. But now it’s all better, and I’m a happy girl.
Well, that’s all there is for now.
I’ll keep y’all updated. :]
Love,
Lauren. <3
P.S. Te amo.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Te amo.
Okay, so zero hour wasn't all that I'd wanted... but it was nice...
Yes, I did hang out with Bryant. And Laura. And Andrea, and everyone else. But yeah, it was kind of weird 'cause I wanted... I don't even know what I wanted, but I knew that Bryant wanted to be near me, and it was nice to just know that. This is going slower than a lot of other relationships that I've had have, but it's kind of nice, 'cause the ones that went slow-ish lasted longer. And I want this to last.
Selgae's. God. If I don't finish this SmartMusic shit, then I can't go! D: And I know that Bryant wouldn't have his world crushed if we couldn't go, but still... I've been looking forward to this for a while. *sigh*
Well, I should do homework now. Guh. I hate finals.
Give me a snow day or give me death,
Lauren.
Yes, I did hang out with Bryant. And Laura. And Andrea, and everyone else. But yeah, it was kind of weird 'cause I wanted... I don't even know what I wanted, but I knew that Bryant wanted to be near me, and it was nice to just know that. This is going slower than a lot of other relationships that I've had have, but it's kind of nice, 'cause the ones that went slow-ish lasted longer. And I want this to last.
Selgae's. God. If I don't finish this SmartMusic shit, then I can't go! D: And I know that Bryant wouldn't have his world crushed if we couldn't go, but still... I've been looking forward to this for a while. *sigh*
Well, I should do homework now. Guh. I hate finals.
Give me a snow day or give me death,
Lauren.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Life and Love
Whew, what a night last night!
So Laura slept over, and it was pretty amazing. So my dad and I were fixing dinner and then when Laura got here we ate. I totally forgot that she ate meat. Wow, what kind of friend am I? *headdesk* But after that, we went downstairs and just talked about shit. And yelled at Matt because he's stupid. God, that kid is making me angry. I mean, seriously. Augh. I want to smack him. But enough about that. So we texted Bryant, too, and he didn't answer for like ever so we watched t.v. We were watching The Girls Next Door and it was quite funny, actually. I mean, it's a huge honor to be a Playmate, but it's also so stereotypical, so it's bittersweet. I dunno. But anyway, I ended up asking Bryant out, and he said yes! I was so happy! :] Tomorrow at school, I'm probably gonna be like mobbed by everybody. Oh, jeez. But I'm actually pretty excited to get back- but I'm more excited that it's like the last week of the quarter. And then I've got all new classes: Math, Science, Enriched History. It's gonna be great. (That was only being 1/2 sarcastic.)
Today kind of sucked... went to the dentist; nothing's bad with my teeth, but I just hate going. Ugh. But before we had to go, I did get to practice my guitar a bit, which was nice.
That's all for now, I guess.
Love,
Lauren. ♥
So Laura slept over, and it was pretty amazing. So my dad and I were fixing dinner and then when Laura got here we ate. I totally forgot that she ate meat. Wow, what kind of friend am I? *headdesk* But after that, we went downstairs and just talked about shit. And yelled at Matt because he's stupid. God, that kid is making me angry. I mean, seriously. Augh. I want to smack him. But enough about that. So we texted Bryant, too, and he didn't answer for like ever so we watched t.v. We were watching The Girls Next Door and it was quite funny, actually. I mean, it's a huge honor to be a Playmate, but it's also so stereotypical, so it's bittersweet. I dunno. But anyway, I ended up asking Bryant out, and he said yes! I was so happy! :] Tomorrow at school, I'm probably gonna be like mobbed by everybody. Oh, jeez. But I'm actually pretty excited to get back- but I'm more excited that it's like the last week of the quarter. And then I've got all new classes: Math, Science, Enriched History. It's gonna be great. (That was only being 1/2 sarcastic.)
Today kind of sucked... went to the dentist; nothing's bad with my teeth, but I just hate going. Ugh. But before we had to go, I did get to practice my guitar a bit, which was nice.
That's all for now, I guess.
Love,
Lauren. ♥
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Touch Me & Tocarme
Touch Me
I want to feel your touch
And even if “we” can’t be
I need it, and I do not care,
Just put your hands on me.
-
I’ve never felt like this before,
But I want your lips on mine,
I know it in my heart of hearts
That this might be a sign.
-
Lace your fingers in with mine
And kiss me soft and sweet
Feel the hunger growing
As we let our bodies meet.
-
Do you feel it in your body?
Do you see it in my eyes?
Do you want it like I do?
Will you let the hunger rise?
-
Am I really ready for this?
It’s a whole new thing to me,
But I sense that if I give in,
It might just set me free.
--
Tocarme
Quiero sentir tu tacto
E incluso si "nosotros" no se puede
Lo necesito, y no me importa,
Solamente ponga sus manos sobre mí.
-
Nunca he sentido así antes,
Pero quiero tus labios en las minas,
Sé que en mi corazón de corazones
Que esto podría ser una señal.
-
Encaje con los dedos en las minas
Y me beso suave y dulce
Sentir el hambre creciente
A medida que nos permiten cumplir con nuestros cuerpos.
-
¿Te sientes en tu cuerpo?
¿Usted lo ve en mis ojos?
¿Quieres que me gusta hacer?
¿Va a dejar que el aumento del hambre?
-
¿Estoy realmente preparado para esto?
Es una cosa totalmente nueva para mí,
Pero tengo la sensación de que si me dan en
Tal vez sólo me libre.
I want to feel your touch
And even if “we” can’t be
I need it, and I do not care,
Just put your hands on me.
-
I’ve never felt like this before,
But I want your lips on mine,
I know it in my heart of hearts
That this might be a sign.
-
Lace your fingers in with mine
And kiss me soft and sweet
Feel the hunger growing
As we let our bodies meet.
-
Do you feel it in your body?
Do you see it in my eyes?
Do you want it like I do?
Will you let the hunger rise?
-
Am I really ready for this?
It’s a whole new thing to me,
But I sense that if I give in,
It might just set me free.
--
Tocarme
Quiero sentir tu tacto
E incluso si "nosotros" no se puede
Lo necesito, y no me importa,
Solamente ponga sus manos sobre mí.
-
Nunca he sentido así antes,
Pero quiero tus labios en las minas,
Sé que en mi corazón de corazones
Que esto podría ser una señal.
-
Encaje con los dedos en las minas
Y me beso suave y dulce
Sentir el hambre creciente
A medida que nos permiten cumplir con nuestros cuerpos.
-
¿Te sientes en tu cuerpo?
¿Usted lo ve en mis ojos?
¿Quieres que me gusta hacer?
¿Va a dejar que el aumento del hambre?
-
¿Estoy realmente preparado para esto?
Es una cosa totalmente nueva para mí,
Pero tengo la sensación de que si me dan en
Tal vez sólo me libre.
Escapar
So yesterday sucked, too. I guess it was just kind of a suckish week. *sigh*
Hopefully this week'll be better.
Today, I'm hoping to get together with Laura and have her sleep over. We haven't had a sleepover for so long, it's insane. She wants to play with my hair and makeup and stuff for Selgae's, and if all goes well, she'll get all day that day to make me beautiful. :3
I got to play my guitar a little bit this morning. I was suprised that I didn't totally suck again; I don't get nearly as much time as I want to to play, but I still remember how to play most of the things I've learned/taught myself. I'm gonna play more this year- I really want to get better at it while it's easier for me to learn and remember. But of course, band comes first.
Speaking of band, I'm anxious for Eagle Band tryouts, even though I think like everybody gets in. I mean, I don't want to be known as the only flute that sucks or whatever... I know that I'm pretty good, but I also know that I could totally screw it up. Playing in front of people (alone, or for chair placements or whatever) makes my stomach churn. Kind of like when Danielle had to leave and she left me to play her solo in Awakening Hills and I think that I kind of sucked. Laura said I did an amazing job, but I'm not so sure.
I'll put a new poem that I wrote up, too. It's called Touch Me, and it was inspired by Untouched by The Veronicas and Addicted by Saving Abel. Enjoy!
Love,
Lauren. ♥
Hopefully this week'll be better.
Today, I'm hoping to get together with Laura and have her sleep over. We haven't had a sleepover for so long, it's insane. She wants to play with my hair and makeup and stuff for Selgae's, and if all goes well, she'll get all day that day to make me beautiful. :3
I got to play my guitar a little bit this morning. I was suprised that I didn't totally suck again; I don't get nearly as much time as I want to to play, but I still remember how to play most of the things I've learned/taught myself. I'm gonna play more this year- I really want to get better at it while it's easier for me to learn and remember. But of course, band comes first.
Speaking of band, I'm anxious for Eagle Band tryouts, even though I think like everybody gets in. I mean, I don't want to be known as the only flute that sucks or whatever... I know that I'm pretty good, but I also know that I could totally screw it up. Playing in front of people (alone, or for chair placements or whatever) makes my stomach churn. Kind of like when Danielle had to leave and she left me to play her solo in Awakening Hills and I think that I kind of sucked. Laura said I did an amazing job, but I'm not so sure.
I'll put a new poem that I wrote up, too. It's called Touch Me, and it was inspired by Untouched by The Veronicas and Addicted by Saving Abel. Enjoy!
Love,
Lauren. ♥
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Other Life?
So yesterday kind of sucked. Okay, it really sucked.
Band was cool, but it's always cool. Computer tech wasn't too hard, either. But Spanish. Woah. I had this bigass test, and I like totally blanked on it- I don't think that I FAILED, but I know that I bs-ed some of it. *sigh* But then I had english. Holy crap. The Scarlet Letter test was awful! The true/false part of it was OPINIONS, too! I was like "FAIL! DIE!" And I also got an 8/18 on that damn vocab quiz.
God, I hate school right now.
After school, Laura and I went to the mall together, and we went to J.C. Penny's, and I found the most beautiful dress I could ever imagine. It was blue, strapless, and floor-length, and it fit me like a dream. But... I couldn't get it. It was $2oo. I almost cried.
...I shouldn't feel guilty. But I do.
Laura and I were talking about Matt last night, too, and it's not pretty. According to her, he's still way not over me... and it's like... sad, because the new girl he's dating is a total bitch, and Laura can tell that she doesn't really like him... and I feel so guilty because he's changed so much, and I know that I had a big hand in it... and I think that he needs to get over me... because I love him, but I'm not IN love with him... and I guess it's possible that we could have a future together, but not now. I've moved on. I know it's really hard to get over someone, but... he's just not dealing with it the right way. I feel so bad for him, too. He deserves better, even though he's kind of turned into a royal jackass. *sigh*
Love sucks.
Lauren.
Band was cool, but it's always cool. Computer tech wasn't too hard, either. But Spanish. Woah. I had this bigass test, and I like totally blanked on it- I don't think that I FAILED, but I know that I bs-ed some of it. *sigh* But then I had english. Holy crap. The Scarlet Letter test was awful! The true/false part of it was OPINIONS, too! I was like "FAIL! DIE!" And I also got an 8/18 on that damn vocab quiz.
God, I hate school right now.
After school, Laura and I went to the mall together, and we went to J.C. Penny's, and I found the most beautiful dress I could ever imagine. It was blue, strapless, and floor-length, and it fit me like a dream. But... I couldn't get it. It was $2oo. I almost cried.
...I shouldn't feel guilty. But I do.
Laura and I were talking about Matt last night, too, and it's not pretty. According to her, he's still way not over me... and it's like... sad, because the new girl he's dating is a total bitch, and Laura can tell that she doesn't really like him... and I feel so guilty because he's changed so much, and I know that I had a big hand in it... and I think that he needs to get over me... because I love him, but I'm not IN love with him... and I guess it's possible that we could have a future together, but not now. I've moved on. I know it's really hard to get over someone, but... he's just not dealing with it the right way. I feel so bad for him, too. He deserves better, even though he's kind of turned into a royal jackass. *sigh*
Love sucks.
Lauren.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Whee.
Okay, so it's been better, I guess.
Last night, I was freaking out because I have to write an evil paper on The Scarlet Letter, and I don't really get the book, so I'm kind of fucked there, but hopefully I can scrape a decent grade... hopefully. *sigh* But I got my Romeo and Juliet essay into Mrs. Goertz, so at least I don't have that hanging over my freaking head. God.
Today was pretty good. I mean, band's always awesome, and computer tech's... computer tech. Haha. Spanish was pretty good, actually. There were a lot of "that's what she said" jokes, which I am getting better at. lol. English was cool; but lunch was good, too. It was fourth hour when things started getting interesting. I have gym fourth with Trevor, Philip, Hannah, Marcie, and tons of other people, and we were playing badminton. I was rockin' out with my badminton racket guitar and headbanging and I was a frickin' hack at it. It was sexy. But yeah, I was really excited and then I was ranting at everyone about everything. Poor Bryant. The kid's heard me ranting and yelling more than like most of my friends have. He's awesome about it, though; he just stands there and listens to me. What a cool kid.
Ooh, yeah, I have a band concert tonight. Laura's got UMTYMP, so I'm gonna help her by getting her saxophone out and shit. 'Cause I'm that cool of a person. But I'm pumped 'cause I get to hang with people and I'll talk to Bryant. Everyone's like "OMG ASK HIM OUT" but I can't get the guts to. *sigh*
Welcome to my life.
Lauren. ♥
P.S. Why am I so afraid to lose you... when you're not even mine?
Last night, I was freaking out because I have to write an evil paper on The Scarlet Letter, and I don't really get the book, so I'm kind of fucked there, but hopefully I can scrape a decent grade... hopefully. *sigh* But I got my Romeo and Juliet essay into Mrs. Goertz, so at least I don't have that hanging over my freaking head. God.
Today was pretty good. I mean, band's always awesome, and computer tech's... computer tech. Haha. Spanish was pretty good, actually. There were a lot of "that's what she said" jokes, which I am getting better at. lol. English was cool; but lunch was good, too. It was fourth hour when things started getting interesting. I have gym fourth with Trevor, Philip, Hannah, Marcie, and tons of other people, and we were playing badminton. I was rockin' out with my badminton racket guitar and headbanging and I was a frickin' hack at it. It was sexy. But yeah, I was really excited and then I was ranting at everyone about everything. Poor Bryant. The kid's heard me ranting and yelling more than like most of my friends have. He's awesome about it, though; he just stands there and listens to me. What a cool kid.
Ooh, yeah, I have a band concert tonight. Laura's got UMTYMP, so I'm gonna help her by getting her saxophone out and shit. 'Cause I'm that cool of a person. But I'm pumped 'cause I get to hang with people and I'll talk to Bryant. Everyone's like "OMG ASK HIM OUT" but I can't get the guts to. *sigh*
Welcome to my life.
Lauren. ♥
P.S. Why am I so afraid to lose you... when you're not even mine?
Monday, January 12, 2009
New Year. Whoopee.
Well, it's a new year. Huzzah. Not.
I guess I'm excited for it to be 2009, but I mean, it feels just like last year. Not different. Maybe it'll turn out to be good (Obama takes office, yay!), but maybe it'll suck. Ah, well, only time will tell.
So I spent New Years with the 'rents, but I won't get into that 'cause it wasn't boring, but not exciting, either. *sigh*
Oh, yes, I was at Trevor's last night for a party, and it was fricking AMAZING. So like everyone was there, and we watched Shallow Hal and it was hilarious. Oh, yeah, and Bryant and I cuddled. He's so comfortable, and I was so happy to be with him. At one point, I just wanted to freeze the rest of the world and just stay there and listen to his heartbeat. He's the most amazing guy ever. *sigh*
So yeah... I really like him. Pretty much the story of my life right now.
RIGHT. THE FUCKING SCARLET LETTER. MY GOD I HATE THAT BOOK WITH A BURNING PASSION AND IT SHOULD GO DIE IN THE FLAMING PITS OF HELL. AUGH. Oh, and I have to write a frickin' essay on it (300 words!) for enriched english! And I have to re-write my Romeo and Juliet paper 'cause it sucked. God. I hate school right now.
*sigh*
Well. I guess I'll talk later. I should start on my essay before I'm totally fucked. =/
Peace.
Lauren. ♥
I guess I'm excited for it to be 2009, but I mean, it feels just like last year. Not different. Maybe it'll turn out to be good (Obama takes office, yay!), but maybe it'll suck. Ah, well, only time will tell.
So I spent New Years with the 'rents, but I won't get into that 'cause it wasn't boring, but not exciting, either. *sigh*
Oh, yes, I was at Trevor's last night for a party, and it was fricking AMAZING. So like everyone was there, and we watched Shallow Hal and it was hilarious. Oh, yeah, and Bryant and I cuddled. He's so comfortable, and I was so happy to be with him. At one point, I just wanted to freeze the rest of the world and just stay there and listen to his heartbeat. He's the most amazing guy ever. *sigh*
So yeah... I really like him. Pretty much the story of my life right now.
RIGHT. THE FUCKING SCARLET LETTER. MY GOD I HATE THAT BOOK WITH A BURNING PASSION AND IT SHOULD GO DIE IN THE FLAMING PITS OF HELL. AUGH. Oh, and I have to write a frickin' essay on it (300 words!) for enriched english! And I have to re-write my Romeo and Juliet paper 'cause it sucked. God. I hate school right now.
*sigh*
Well. I guess I'll talk later. I should start on my essay before I'm totally fucked. =/
Peace.
Lauren. ♥
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